When You're Looking For A Way Out

Most weeks, I receive emails the gist of which is:There is something incredibly powerful about sharing
"how do I get out, when I don't know where to go,with other women - who do understand - her
what to do and feel utterly devoid of resources?"partner's bad behaviours. And discovering that they
What do you do when know you need to bringcan almost finish each other's sentences and stories.
about huge changes in your life and the mereBecause abusive men all appear, at some point, to
thought is enough to paralyse you?have attended Abusive Man School, where they
Someone once famously said: "You do what you can,learned the same threats, insults, gestures, temper
from where you are, with what you have." No moretantrums, sulks and excuses.
and no less: what you can, from where you are withWhat these women have been through can never be
what you have, however great or small that may betermed funny. Still they start to see their partner's
right now. It doesn't matter. You can't know howtemper tantrums for what they are - and they laugh
little it may take to effect the change that will tunat the 'snit fits'.
your life around.That laughter comes from an extraordinarily profound
And you trust. You start to trust in the nature ofcourage and breaks the bonds that locked them into
change.their partner's moods. It's not a solution, but it does
You may have reached the limits of what you knowmark a big step forward. That laughter enables them
you can do, but that doesn't mean you have cometo connect honestly with other people once again. So
anywhere near the limits of what is possible. Not bythey start to break out of the isolation their partner
a long chalk.imposed on them.
"If nothing changes, nothing changes" may be aBeyond that, I always urge women to find 10 things
truism, but it bears thinking about. Not least, becauseto celebrate in their day, and to celebrate them last
the opposite is equally true: "If something changes,thing at night, before they go to sleep. Again, you
even something small, everything changes". Anystart from where you are with what you have. You
change destabilizes the existing situation, albeitmay celebrate something your child, or a friend, has
piecemeal, in ways that you might not even registersaid to you. You may celebrate having a roof over
at first.your head, or enough food to eat, or the sunshine,
So suppose you're in this place where you feelthe beauty of a flower, a child's smile. The choice is
paralysed and devoid of resources? You still do whatyours.
you can, from where you are, with what you have.Time and again, when I say this to women who are
First of all, you honour your own courage andin the depths of despair, they initially assume I must
awareness, because you know what you want tobe a cross between Pollyanna and a moron. And
do, despite all the brainwashing. There is somethingwhen they start to practise this, they are amazed at
incredibly resilient inside you that will not give up andwhat a shift it brings about in their feelings about
die despite all you have been through.themselves and the world
Every thought, every hope and dream you entertain,It won't turn an abusive partner into a nice guy, any
however fleetingly, of something better is a seedmore than Danny De Vito can turn into Brad Pitt, but
that will grow. The root system is already strong andit will start the process of restoring joy and
vigorous.confidence to your life.
Then you start to do whatever you can, fromOnce your joy and confidence start to revive so to
where you are.will your intuition and your sense of empowerment.
Next you continue to seek out the support youAt that point, with your sense of your self and your
need, both from sources like "The Woman Yougifts, qualities and resources in place, you will have
Want To Be" ezine and from whatever groups in thefaith in your ability to make good decisions. You will
real world are available to you.be able to get out successfully and create a better
One thing that always strikes me when working withlife for yourself and your children.
an abused woman for the first time, is the sense ofStart the process of getting out by doing what you
relief and reassurance she gets from discovering thatcan, from where you are, with what you have; and
she is 'not the only one'. Not only does she realisetrust. No need to worry about how it will pan out;
that it isn't 'her fault', but she can enter into a societythe results will amaze and delight you. Just trust,
of her peers, with no lies, no cover-ups and nocommit and watch it unfold.
shame.