Surviving Narcissistic Abuse

My recent divorce from a very abusive Narcissist hasI deserved so much better treatment than what I
left me reflecting on how I survived that six and awas receiving from my husband.
half years. My abuser was verbally and emotionally asEach time an abuser devalues and demeans a victim,
well as psychologically abusive. The reason hesomething inside that victim dies just a little bit more.
stopped being physically abusive is because I made aUntil there is nothing left of the victim's soul.
habit of dialing 911 whenever he became physicallyNarcissists really do rob you of your soul. They
threatening towards me. This worked for me.destroy it piece by piece and bit by bit until there is
All the books tell you the way to get away is to bejust a black empty hole left inside the victim. When
passive and act like there is something wrong withthe victim reaches that point she has nothing left to
yourself. This is suppose to make the Narcissist losegive or lose.
interest and move on. Nothing could be farther fromThat particular point is what I call the crucial turning
the truth. The more passive a victim is, the morepoint. That is when the fight or flight response kicks
abuse and devaluation she will receive. We won'tin. Except fleeing is not a good option. They will find
even mention how that tactic also adds to her ownyou and con you into letting them back in your life
devaluation. How could a women possibly feel goodagain. Fighting is the only option the victim has at that
about lying down to take the abuse and then blamingpoint. She must fight with all the might she has, each
herself? The abuser does that enough without theand every time there is the slightest attack. When
victim joining him.the victim fights back the abuser is suprised and
The only way I found to get out was to fight back. Idoes not like that he can be attacked as well. He will
fought back hard and heavy with every ounce of myrecoil. Exactly like the viper he is. The victim must not
being every single time. Sure, he devalued me, yes,let up and continue to keep him off guard. When she
he demeaned me, but did I believe him? Hell, No! Idoes make her break he will not stop her. He will be
knew no matter how much I loved him, Iglad she is gone. That is exactly how I survived
emphatically did NOT deserve the way he treatedNarcissistic abuse.
me. Something way down deep inside kept telling me