I Deserve Better

Have you ever said those words to a partner or topeople who believe their best hope of attaining
yourself? It's an important statement to makecomfort is to cut off your source of supply and drain
because it's often the first step towards trulywhatever resources you have.
realising that ill treatment you have experienced isHence the question arises: Better than what? Better
not a reflection of your value.than the worst relationship you've had? Better than
But that is all it is: a first step.nothing? Better than the proverbial 'burnt stick in the
This week a woman spoke up in one of myeye'?
domestic violence recovery workshops and said sheHow much better is better? How much better do
was coming to terms with the break-up of her latestyou deserve things to be? 10%? 20%? 50%? And
relationship. It hadn't been as bad as previoushow soon can you claim the better life that you
relationships, she said. There had been no physicaldeserve? Now? Or does it have to be a long, slow,
violence. But she had found herself emotionallywearisome process? Is it yours for life, or can it be
'carrying' this man. Over time the burden had becometaken away from you again?
heavier and heavier.Liz sat blinking like an owl in strong light as she
And then, her face contorting with the difficulty ofprocessed these ideas. What clinched it for her was
actually speaking the words, she added tremulously:realising that her deserving the best deprived nobody.
"It sounds awful to say it, I know, but I deserveRather, since it meant that she would no longer be
better." Then she stopped expectantly, almost as ifrunning on empty, she could share the generosity of
she was waiting for the sky to fall down on her, orher spirit even more constructively than she had in
the other women to hiss or throw their paper coffeethe past. (Not least because, from now on, she will
cups at her.steer clear of those people who would rather drain
Needless to say, it didn't happen. They were probablyher resources than uncover the wellspring of their
thinking about how she had had to screw up herown.)
courage to speak those words.When Liz said: "I deserve the best", she made no
At that point a connection that has been a long timeapologies for the statement she made. It sat well
coming clicked into place in my brain and I asked herwith her.
if she would allow me to challenge her on thatBecause there is something far more compelling
statement. She nodded bravely, but apprehensively.about speaking words out loud than just thinking
Had she been staking too high a claim to life's riches?them, I asked the other women to join in also. A
I said: "I dispute the fact that you deserve better,chorus of "I deserve the best" filled the room.
Liz. You deserve the best." The atmosphere in theThat group of women who generally apologise for
room became electric.their existence had no problem declaring that they
Nobody deserves better. As unique, precious humandeserve the best.
beings who have made do with crumbs, whileFocusing on a modest improvement in their
generously nurturing the other people in their life -circumstances kept these women thinking small. It
every abused woman deserves the best.kept them focusing on doing just a little bit better
Actually, I believe that every human being isthan what they were used to doing.
deserving of the best that life has to offer; love,Raising the bar unconditionally transported them into
care, respect, consideration, far more than materiala different place; the place where their dreams,
goods. The key is to understand that this abundancebeliefs and values still grow. In that place they knew
can be freely available to all. Owning your own shareand felt that they deserve the best.
does not reduce the amount that is available to all. ItWhat about you? You deserve the best, don't you?
doesn't mean depriving other people. Your abundanceSo why not just say it out loud to yourself a few
only increases the available store.times a day? It makes a great mantra. And you'll
Deprivation occurs when you encounter those peoplenever know how much more at peace with yourself
who have, or believe they have, nothing to give;you'll feel until you give it a try.