Domestic Violence and Self-Esteem - Conditioned Disassociation in Abusive Relationships

Abused intimate partners do come in all shapes andleast until they return to their abusive partners.
sizes, and most definitely there are some themesSo what came first the chicken or the egg? Looking
characterizing them. Some people will tell you lowcloser, as we have, opens the door for significant
self-esteem is one of these characteristics. But whatinsight on how to shed the internalized personal
came first: the chicken or the egg?perception of the abusive partner. Doing so gives
I would venture to say it could go either way. I seenew life to those once abused.
an inordinate number of highly functioning, high-endIf you find yourself becoming what your former
professionals, well educated and with a six-figurepartner expected, and in many cases desired,
income who are abused by their intimate partners.recognize the operative conditioning in play. I've heard
What I notice is these women and men evidencepeople say they became depressed following an
"conditioned disassociation." This conditioning is howencounter with an abuser they recently left.
he/she grows to disregard him/herself.It's noted that the depressed feeling is the "face" put
Over time, the abused partner grows to see himon in the presence of that person as though
herself as they are told they are seen by theirreflexively becoming as expected by the former
intimate partners. And much approval is received forpartner. And with that down-depressed radiance set
this "internalized personal perception."in the genuine feeling of the blues.
But when apart from the abusive partner, theseReach back for yourself above and beyond the
individuals may drop the internalized personalexpectation and desire of the abusive ex-partner.
perception and become who they really are. TheyYou'll be pleasantly surprised and happy you did.
are authentic, they are vital, they are themselves at